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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Finally Found Something Worthy Of Blogging About...

I've wanted to start a Blog for a while now, I love to write. I hate that I've neglected it for so long, but I just haven't found anything worth writing--that which would be good for me and good for the public. I have kept a journal since I was 8 years old, I still have that first one. This Blog is mostly about my new journey as a Mom. I am 39 weeks and 3 days. My little girl will be here any day! Her name is Lucy Bloom. I was journaling last night about this massive shift in my life that is coming--it's inevitable. The underlying feeling most women without children get about being mothers is that motherhood is a jail sentence. I know many mothers will deny this strong statement but will affirm, "Say good-bye to your freedom, your life, your time--just say goodbye to you." So in other words, a jail sentence! And I just read an article today--actually I had to pause before posting this entry to go with my husband on an errand, while in the waiting room I read this article in the Women's Journal Magazine--reflecting this very emotion. The author of the article writes when finding out she was pregnant, "All I could sense was the fading ghost of my own freedom."
Well, I don't believe it. Yes an old me will fade, but a new me is emerging! I am about to experience my own birth. A new part of me is about to be released that no one has ever seen before because it's never been activated. I've heard it said, "With every birth of a child, there's a birth of a mother."
A little over a year ago I bought a new journal (as I always do when if I finish one, or am about to embark on a new season in my life) after I returned from my brother-in-law and sister-in-law's wedding. It was there that Ben (my husband) and I felt it was time to start preparing for a child. I didn't realize until after I bought this journal that on the cover was a picture of a mother bird bringing her baby bird food. Under the two birds is the word, "free." I just liked the birds and the "free!" I wrote my last entry yesterday, on the last page. After writing I felt inspired to chronicle my moments of motherhood in a blog. The picture on the cover inspired the name of the blog, which I will post because after reading that it sounds really confusing. So here goes...

2 comments:

  1. I'm so excited to read about you and Ben's journey of parenthood. I love you guys!

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  2. I love the way you write, Jen.
    I've missed your voice through pen and paper.
    So excited to see your birth and journey as a mother.

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